Sweaty Palm

2004-01-06T07:59:00.000-08:00

My indecision to call you, to hear your voice of reason. Will you come home to stop this pain tonight? Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head. I miss you and love(yes love) you and i will hold on to what little hope is left until finally my dream is shattered and i fall to earth with a bump. But until then i am yours and yours exclusively.

2003-06-01T04:04:00.000-07:00

Random Thoughts..

If i avoid certain conversations with you sometimes, its not because i hate you. Rather, its because i simply don't want to lead you on.

If i suddenly message you, its because i miss you.

If i stop messaging you, its because you ignored me and i guess you don't care at all.

I'm not always happy although i smile. The feelings i feel is after the smile.

I don't say "I love you" for fun. If I ever say that to you, I really mean it. If not, the most I will say is, "I like you".

I always give hints. So be a little bit more sensitive and you will get what I mean.

Sometimes I just get so cold. It's because I don't wish to let the rest know how I feel at that point of moment. I rather ignore everyone then to dampen everyone's mood.

I've got temper. Real bad ones. But forgive me for being mean sometimes. It's hard to control.

Some words that I have said doesn't match my heart. It's because sometimes the truth is better left unsaid.

I am single not because i want to, but I just seem to get the right guy who wants to spend his lifetime with me. I am just too afraid of being in love and get hurt once again.

There are times whereby I wanted to be with someone so much that I retreated. Because the thought of breaking up again really bothers me.

If you really likes me, or rather love me, tell me. Be straightforward. But don't hurt me. Promise me that.

I may appear that I don't care. But I DO care. It's just that people will find it fake if we are overly concerned.

Sometimes I really wish to show that I care. But I feels that you are not interested. I rather keep it to myself.

Please trust me, I am trying hard to be happy and move on with no heavy heart.

If i could move on and leave all these behind i would, but its too late.. somehow its become a part of me.

2003-04-17T07:56:00.001-07:00

Life is like a vaccum cleaner. It sucks.

2003-04-17T07:56:00.000-07:00

Time..

Time came and Time went.
Time never stayed.
Time cried "Why wait?" And I wondered.
Time complained "Stop wasting!" And i couldn't help but agree.
Time screamed "Go and do it!" But i hesistated.
Time apologised "Sorry, no waiting" And left me.
Time sneered.
Time cheated.
Time bullied me.
Time encouraged "You can do it" But i doubted so.
Time pushed "Come on.." But i was still numb and unfeeling.
Time tolerated no more of this crap and was gone..
With me still on the highway,
Wondering how to move on...

2003-04-15T04:04:00.000-07:00

Wah...confused...u say it clearer then i can tell u my opinions

2003-04-15T01:35:00.000-07:00

Speaking the truth

Number1 and number2 are my friends.

I lie to number1 in the dining area, number2 is in the living hall.

If I want to speak the truth, should I also tell number2 the truth? I don't think number2 can hear our conversation clearly.

Can anyone here tell me?

2003-04-14T01:32:00.000-07:00

[Re: Nope, I didn't send you. Don't think you know that song.]

Hillsongs Australia - Magnificent

Who compares to You?
Who set the stars in their place?
You who calmed the raging seas
That came crashing over me.

Who compares to You?
You who bring the morning light,
The hope of all the earth
Is rest assured in Your great love.

chorus:
You are magnificent,
Eternally wonderful, glorious.
Jesus, no one ever will compare
You are magnificent,
Eternally wonderful, glorious.
Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus.

Where the evening fades,
You call forth songs of joy.
As the morning wakes,
We Your children give You praise.
(chorus)

Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus.
No one ever will compare
(chorus)
Jesus, no one ever will compare
To You, Jesus.
No one ever will compare
To You, Jesus.

[emil what song is that? u send to me b4? *blur*]

2003-04-11T03:27:00.000-07:00

An entry of a depressed girl..
Love..
How do you know if its love when you feel something for a person?
Sometimes when u think u really love someone..you somehow still
have to let go of them. Yet in your heart..you wish for them to come
back..but unfortunately..they never will.
Infatuation..
What is infactuation anyway? If you love someone..yet someone else
says its infatuation..how would u know? And how would you know that
if someone who says he loves you really care? Could it be infatuation
that he feels towards you?

Love..a complicating thing.. sometimes people are afraid to take the
risk and love again after times of being hurt because they are unsure
if its love or infatuation or something else... why is love like this? To me
love at first sight doesn't exist.. i don't feel like loving anymore.. because
i don't think anyone loves me because he definately doesn't anymore...or
perhaps he never did. I mean relationship love..not sibling
love or family love..friend love or anything..but all i know is i love God
and he loves me too.. maybe that's all i will ever need since relationship
love hurts so badly.. at least God will never turn his back on me and pretend
that he never loved me. He would love me back as long as i loved him too...

Thinking of all these makes my palm sweaty..or is it wet due to the tears that drip
down from my face? an entry of a depressed girl.. will she ever make it out on her
own again? can she learn to trust..to risk it all and start anew? stay tuned to find
out -_-"
[edit] sorry dudes..sad mood that's why i'm writting these crap.. please ignore it
and blog yer stuff.. thank you.. God bless you.. btw..is the new layout ok? if not,
then i'll change it back to the original one.. yeah.. [/edit]

2003-04-09T23:45:00.000-07:00

I need you

You are so beautiful.

You are so wonderful.

You are flawless.

I can't eat without you.

I can't sleep without you.

I can't live without you!

You are my best friend.

Hey you want to buy insurance?

Hey you want to buy love?

Hey can you sign a love contract with me? Erm.. 2 years contract ehehe..

Hey help me to throw this.

Hey this is a perfect product, you buy now got discount.

Hey can sign a friendship contract with me? Two weeks contract.

Hey! See I'm so adorable.

HEY!!! YOU GOT NOOOOO LOVE!!!!!!!!!! (oh I really dun like this)

2003-04-09T20:32:00.000-07:00

Erm. you all blog in poetry like stuff..what am i suppose to blog ?_? i suck at all the chim stuff :p i passed lit by 1 mark only =X

2003-04-08T08:57:00.000-07:00

The sweaty palm
So fun
Can play tic tac toe on the table
And irritate people

So Sickening
Make your girlfriend feel yukky
Make what you hold become wet
Always have the smell of money on your hands
Make the mouse and keyboard black
Make it difficult to concentrate when playing games

There are more cons then pros. But like many things in real life. There are always more cons then pros. But i would say i like my sweaty palms. Because they make me...ME!

2003-04-08T08:40:00.000-07:00

Sweaty Palm

Some say you are honest.

Some say you are the performance spoiler.

Some say you are the cooler.

Some say you are paranoid.

Some say you are a weapon.

Some say you are disgusting.

Who or what are you?